Comfort Zones.

So I thought maybe it's time to start cataloging my thoughts on this blog. I've never had a journal, really, until recently. I've never felt comfortable enough with telling people anything. But now that I'm pretty much public, I've screwed the pooch on going back underground, at least as Z.

So, while these won't be as aggressive or as controversial as my other posts (I think, and hope, since I'm pretty much over the RLSH community as the center of the movement), there should still be some good discourse here. And i've unlocked the comments section, if anyone feels the need to chime in.

So here's the deal: I'm a radical. Always have been, always will be. I think in terms of change, I break down borders and rules (within a moral code), and I refuse to accept the everyday life lies.

I'm, by definition, a radical. No other way to say it.

So, I think i can see why some people would want nothing to do with me. I represent self inspection, and improvement by destruction of safe sensibilities. And as we all know, self inspection is something the RLSH do not do enough of, as a whole. If they did, i don't think they'd be saying or claiming the things they do.

Or maybe they just have a skewed sense of what's acceptable. That's understandable, in a world full of different types of parenting. You get all kinds.

Not my point, at least not this time (maybe next post.)

My point is, I'm somewhat comfortable with the RLSH.net being the FOX news of the RLSH community. The world needs a "safe" branch to turn to. And they definitely keep it safe, no matter what the truth. Sorry to be so blunt, but well... it's the truth.

They sacrifice truth for peace.

They're very polite, and they accept a lot of different people into their ranks, but that's not always a good thing. Nonetheless, it's one solution to a problem that will no doubt come up later.

The Heroes Network is a bit different, albeit still as flawed. They sacrifice peace for truth (duh.) They discuss things of a more controversial nature, allow all conversations to be talked through, and generally don't put up with the types of people the RLSH does.

It's easy to see why Zeta and DG would not want to be aligned with them (us). They're secretive, edgier, and definitely not super-media friendly. But using the excuse "they advocate vigilantism" is not enough, especially when you're endorsing a movie about superhero kids killing people. But that drama is over, so I won't dwell there.

You can sort of see where my preferences lie, just by my tone here. While neither one is perfect, the attitude of the HN just rings true to me. And it will be that attitude that brings change in the world, as controversy always has.

But i don't discount that the RLSH.net will be a part of it, as well. I just find myself afraid for the future sometimes, due to choices I see made. I don't want to see this crash and burn before it even gets started.

So sue me if I'm a little abrasive about it sometimes, we're all in the same boat, unfortunately, and some of us have more at stake in the long run.